Wednesday, March 4, 2009
The latest Jim Carrey movie is called 'Yes Man'. Carrey's character goes to a motivational speaker that challenges him to say 'yes' to everything - hilarity ensues.... The movie leaves much to be desired, but I was caught by the idea and wondered how often I said 'yes' rather than 'no'. Life isn't really that binary. But the idea of saying 'yes' suggests that we are moving forward, being intentional.
I know what I want from life, and I know how I want to live - but do I? I want to be in great shape, be well read, engage with interesting friends, do meaningful work, be creative, be generous, be environmentally aware, care for my soul, and love my family. I am sure if I worked a bit at that list it would grow much longer. These aren't things that I think I should do, these are things I really want to do. I realize how often I fall short in achieving even the desires that are on the top of my mind. I waste time. I get caught by the things that distract from what is important. I don't think I am good enough. I have lots of excuses.
This blog itself is a conscious choice I have made - get up and write. I have wanted to write for so long, but always found reasons not to - whether not enough time, or not enough talent - I would talk myself out of it. It seems the reasons not to do something often win over my desire to do something.
I also have that very odd experience of when I am in the midst of doing what I really want, when I am being intentional about life, I can't imagine life being any other way. Yet, if, for whatever reason - being sick, travel, etc. - I am knocked off my course - getting back on becomes incredibly difficult and feels often like a complete restart.
I have had lots of conversations with my kids about why they didn't do something, or couldn't do something. They would list the reasons and excuses - which often included things which they felt were beyond their control. I would tell them 'you have two choices, you can either make life happen, or life will happen to you'.
I have to do a better job of taking my own advice.